Monday
Went to the park with Brodie (we have an awesome park in our front yard!)
That's Daddy in the background. I know, I should be a professional.
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So when it rains it pours...
-lost my job
-lost my cell
-lost that closeness with a best friend
-oh...and got a friggin ticket.
But a lot of good has happened too...
Harland and I have only fought really about one thing in our whole relationship (besides smoking haha)..which is his drinking. He doesn't drink often but when he does... another person comes out. So after making some stupid decisions, we talked and decided we are just not going out without each other anymore. It's just not healthy in a relationship (unless you can do it right, and most couples can't.) There are certain times of corse when we will...for a few hours but it's definitely not going to be how it has been. We went to church last week and Pastor Bryan said that he felt that he was there to talk to someone, that someone needed his prayers and that if anyone wanted to come to the front to get a blessing, they should. So at the end of the sermon I was getting up to leave, and he said, "babe, I'm going to go to the front." I was like what?! So I went with him and he said that he has not been the spouse that I deserve and that he wants Gods help to stop drinking and he wants to be everything that I deserve. I, of corse, was sobbing. A couple tears were running down his checks as well, it was a great moment. Our relationship has been amazing. We've said to each other a bunch of times that we're like how we use to be...it's nice to have that feeling again, and know that he has it too.
This new MOD at school is by far the hardest. Anatomy and EKG (electrocardiography). So far I've learned a TON about blood, circulation, and the heart. 4 tests so far, (2 100's) and still no B's! Knock on wood.
The greatest thing that has happened is I am growing closer to God everyday. I have never had this type of relationship with Him before. I feel like a completely different person. I have kept true to my word, reading the Bible almost every day, going to church every Sunday, and praying everyday. I never realized how great the Bible is! I've never had any desire to read it but it's like a thirst for me now that has to be quenched. This is my favorite verse I've read so far that's really helped me in this tough time:
"Do not worry what shall we eat or what shall we wear for your Heavenly Father knows that you need them. Seek first his kingdom and his righteousness and all these things will be given to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:31-34
From now on I'm going to leave ya'll with a verse. Hope everyone has a great rest of the week!
I always love reading your blog. You're so driven and inspirational. No matter what happens...bad or good, you're always so positive! That's so awesome. And baby Brodie is so freaking adorable. I love all his little expressions!
ReplyDeleteThat is so sweet! Thank you so much!
ReplyDeleteYou're welcome! Btw...I just noticed that I was following your blog twice. Not sure how that even happened, lol. I promise I'm not a stalker, lol! :)
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